Confessions of a Writer: I Really Wanted to Be a Rockette

November 19, 2015

I’m the youngest child in my family.  There are three boys ahead of me.  Three salt of the earth, do what’s expected of them boys.  Then I came along and completely dumbfounded my parents.  You’ve never witnessed a more dreamy, starry eyed, gonna take on the world kid as I was.

Let’s walk through the phases of the birth of a writer.

NYC Rockette

Radio CityThis was my first passion.  I saw them on the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade, and I just knew, knew that I was going to be a Rockette.  It was only a matter of time.  From the Rockettes, I fell in love with Judy from White Christmas.  I would don my very old, well worn cheerleader Halloween costume and dance to Mandy over and over again.  This was not simply changing the scene on a DVD.  This was off of a VHS tape of a recording of the movie when it had played on TV.  That’s dedication to an art form.  This dream sadly died when my mom said I was going to be a Rockette and then proceeded to never take me to a dance class.  Ever.  (Not that I’m bitter.)  Side note: I just learned you need to be 5’5″ to be a Rockette, and horrifically, I miss that mark by half an inch.  Thanks for the kick in the pants, life.

Indiana Jones

I rocked Halloween costumes of all the things I wanted to be.
I rocked Halloween costumes of all the things I wanted to be.

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Yeah, this one surprised me, too!  Obstetrician got mushed together with my long time desire to be a nurse.  Somewhere there is a rogue gene in me that wants to enter the medical field to this day.  I’ve worked hard over the years to suppress it with constant reminders that I hate math, and medical school involves a lot of math.  (However, I do indulge with far too many binges of Call the Midwife.)

And then I arrived at college.

I applied to one school, and thank God I got in.  I couldn’t have cared less about getting a degree because nothing compared to Indiana Jones.  I wrote all the time, writing down the stories that had begun floating into my head at the age of 4.

And then I heard a quote attributed to Tom Hanks, and although like many quotes attributed to famous people, I’m sure this one got altered somewhere along the way.  But the heart of it is this: Tom Hanks decided to be an actor when he realized he wanted to be everything.  By being an actor, he could find out what it was like to be a doctor, pilot, soldier, lawyer.  He could be it all.

And that’s when I found the right title.


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